Morning Pages for Friday

well here we are again. friday.

the end of the week.

what do i have to say for myself?

i can't help but be bemused by all the interactions and reactions of our little community to one another. we are all characters aren't we? i wonder what steretypical role i would play in a reality show where you dump a group of very different personalities together? when i was working in the helping profession field....we once had human resources come to our group and do these little "tests" to see how we all got along. we had to design a rollercoaster together using paper or some such thing.

what happened you ask? well...pretty much what you would expect. the bossy people got bossy and fought with other bossy people. the slackers slacked and rolled their eyes at the whole thing. the folk who never shared, hoarded their materials. and the do-ers quietly began doing. me? i found myself in the role of cheerleader and peacekeeper much to my surprise. i could predict how everyone was gonna act and react but myself. i was the one to try to help the others get together and work well with each other. i was the one to attempt to offer encouragement and praise. it was more important for me that the folks get along than to actually finish the project. it was strange for me to discover this about myself because i feel i am such an introvert.

in my life i have just about boiled my own skin alive trying to get people together...mostly family members. i have hosted horrific thanksgiving dinners and other get togethers which make me cringe to this day. i have had some good endings such as when i got two of my half siblings together (they never lived with me and are much older than i am). they had been feuding for over a decade when i wrote to one and...this led to a reconciliation between the two...okay so it took another decade for that to happen! but...i like to think that i had something to do with it. but ultimately people have to decide for themselves who they want to associate with and who they don't and i respect that.

not everyone is gonna hold hands with each other and sing kumbayah. lol and that is just fine.

but with every interaction you do have with others...whether it be good or horrific...sounds cliched to say but you do learn something about yourself. we are all mirrors of each other and our schtuff. maybe the best that we learn is...hey...i never want to be like that but maybe somewhere deep inside me...i am a bit of that.

well...anyways...

have a good day and i shall return later to babble some more.

merelyme