Loose Lips

This song makes me cry...and especially in light of the current state of things in this country. I love Kimya Dawson.



Loose lips might sink ships but loose gooses take trips
to San Francisco, double dutch disco,
tech. TV hottie, do it for scottie
do it for the living and do it for the dead
do it for the monsters under your bed
do it for the teenagers and do it for your mom
broken hearts hurt but they make us strong and

[we won't stop until somebody calls the cops
and even then we'll start again and just pretend that
nothing ever happened X2]

we're just dancing, we're just hugging,
singing, screaming, kissing, tugging
on the sleeve of how it used to be
how's it gonna be?
I'll drop kick Russell Stover, move into the starting over house
and know Matt Rouse and Jest are watching me achieve my dreams

and we'll pray, all damn day, every day,
that all this shit our president has got us in will go away
while we strive to figure out a way we can survive
these trying times without losing our minds

so if you wanna burn yourself remember that I love you
if you wanna cut yourself remember that I love you
if you wanna kill yourself remember that I love you
call me up before your dead, we can make some plans instead
send me an IM, I'll be your friend

shysters live from scheme to scheme and my 4th quarter pipe dreams
are seeming more and more worth fighting for
so I'll curate some situations, make my job a big vacation
and I'll say fuck Bush and fuck this war
my war paint is Sharpie ink and I'll show you how much my shit stinks
and ask you what you think because your thoughts and words are powerful

they think we're disposable, while both my thumbs opposable,
spelled out on a double word and triple letter score and

[we won't stop until somebody calls the cops
and even then we'll start again and just pretend that
nothing ever happened X4]

we're just dancing, we're just hugging,
singing, screaming, kissing, tugging
on the sleeve of how it used to be

perfect song for my mood...

right...

i forgot...U2 Joshua Tree....REM.... some classic aretha franklin...okay and...The Strokes

song in my head

woke up to having this song in my head. i have always loved how crazy he looks in this...with his wide eyed animal stare.

Live-I alone

it's easier not to be wise
and measure these things by your brains
I sank into Eden with you
alone in the church by and by
I'll read to you here, save your eyes
you'll need them, your boat is at sea
your anchor is up, you've been swept away
and the greatest of teachers won't hesitate
to leave you there, by yourself, chained to fate

I alone love you
I alone tempt you
I alone love you
fear is not the end of this!

it's easier not to be great
and measure these things by your eyes
we long to be here by his resolve
alone in the church by and by
to cradle the baby in space
and leave you there by yourself chained to fate

oh, now, we took it back too far,
only love can save us now,
all these riddles that you burn
all come runnin' back to you,
all these rhythms that you hide
only love can save us now,
all these riddles that you burn yeah, yeah, yeah

What do you smell?

I smell sex and candy...

suzie my idol

the character of suzie...from the larry david show...curb your enthusiasm...she is my fucking idol. love her!



if you have never seen the show...this is one of the greatest clips from the larry david show...he was the co-creator of seinfeld. the infamous...judy doll episode.

Teasing Toes

I'll tell ya...with the day I had yesterday....I can use a little lighthearted fun! Between having MS symptoms and being told that my babysitter for my son is quitting....well...set me up with some martinis in the sun why don't ya so I can forget the world? In lieu of martinis...how about a flashback kids? Remember this movie...Flashdance? And the scene in the restaurant?

Toes...as in my previous posting....can indeed be a source of pain...but we all know that they can also be a source of pleasure. Enjoy. :>)

Love Song

I have been hearing this song everywhere lately but only the first couple of refrains so I had to hear the whole thing. It is quite good I think and appopriate for our love theme.

who remembers this song?

anybody remember The Breeders? i was excited when i first heard them but they just dissapeared from the music scene after Last Splash released in 1993. I hear rumors that they are coming up with a new album come April of this year called Mountain Battles.

so come on...you remember them right? please don't tell me you were listening to old tapes of journey, air supply...abba...genesis...michael bolten...noooooooo! say it isn't so! well who am i to talk...i fully admit to liking disco music. i'm very eclectic but i also have my standards.

song i woke up to in my head...

every morning i wake up with a song in my head.

how about a classic? i present to you...alice in chains...man in the box.

We interrupt your regularly scheduled program...

FOR THIS! Take note. Losing all my marbles. There they go. Beyond stressed. Oh most definitely...I want to be sedated. We will resume our love celebration after this brief meltdown on my part.

For this only the Ramones will do...

My love offering to you this morning...

is...a little video i found. yes! it is the music from that diamond commercial. i had never heard the song in its entirety so here it is for your viewing pleasure.

The name of the song is 'Falling in Love at a Coffee Shop,' by Landon Pigg

Here is a link about the song and how it was used in the commercial: http://www.spinner.com/2008/01/15/whats-that-song-in-the-debeers-diamond-commercial/

"My shit's fucked up"

A friend of mine in synchronicity and in MS...sent me a song just the other day. There is something darkly humorous about it. It comes for us all. Sooner or later...your "shit is fucked up." Time is the great equalizer for us all as we age into...being broken.

Thanks teapot man...this one's for you.



(Warren Zevon)

Well, I went to the doctor
I said, "I'm feeling kind of rough"
He said, "I'll break it to you, son [Warren sings, "Let me break it to you, son"]
Your shit's fucked up."
I said, "my shit's fucked up?"
Well, I don't see how-"
He said, "The shit that used to work-
It won't work now."

I had a dream
Ah, shucks, oh, well
Now it's all fucked up
It's shot to hell

Yeah, yeah, my shit's fucked up
It has to happen to the best of us
The rich folks suffer like the rest of us
It'll happen to you

That amazing grace
Sort of passed you by
You wake up every day
And you start to cry
Yeah, you want to die
But you just can't quit
Let me break it on down:
It's the fucked up shit

saturday morning pages

Rise and shine peoples!

well here it is...saturday already...how did that happen?

i am not sure what is happening to me but i sure am writing a lot here on my blog. i seem to need this right now. i need the structure of it...the outlet of it...the comradery of it.

i am feeling more courageous lately to talk about topics which are difficult to talk about. let's see: depression, politics, MS, and sex! i feel religion may be next. so watch out. :>)

i used to watch a show long time ago called Ally McBeal...loved that show....and there was this character called Fish who would resolve all conflicts with a simple word, "Bygones."

so if i have offended, displeased, made uncomfortable, made uneasy, created trouble for, or in any way rocked your world in a bad way, blame it all on me....it is all my fault and well..."bygones."

moving right along...i am feeling good today mentally. and physically. i feel i can do things.

i want to protect my mental health. the one trick i do have is to focus on where i do want to go instead of just reacting to life. i want to focus on the things i feel are most important to me. i want to move forward and not back. or at least stay still. stillness is good too.

anyways...i have been trying to find a video which doesn't exist...one of my favorite blue's traveller songs is Just Wait. it is a beautiful song meant for a friend to a friend. the words make me cry and they are words i wish someone would say to me at times. sometimes one finds comfort in simple song lyrics. i could not find a regular video with this song...and ironically i stumbled upon one which warned. WARNING...EXPLICIT GOD CONTENT. lol i guess i am stumbling into the religion topic whether i wanted to or not. like i said...i wanted to share this song with you...as a friend to friends...for whomever needed to hear the words...not to promote religion. this is the only vid i could find with the song and words...the God part...is not my intended message. so just ignore that part if you want to/choose to and...if you are cool with it...then listen to it. i just wanted folk to know that i am not promoting that part of the video...whoever created this...took that as their personal meaning. i just simply wanted to share the song itself and the words.

so without further adieu...this song is for whoever needs it today...

Music Shopping

I'm a happy girl this evening...I bought me some new music...the new White Stripes...Icky Thump. How do they do it? For only two people they sure know how to make some noise.

Here is a taste



Next on my list...Radiohead's In Rainbows. Has anyone heard all of it yet?

Again here is another taste... their song "videotape"...music and lyrics. my god it is haunting.

When I'm at the pearly gates
This'll be on my videotape
My videotape
My videotape

When Mephistopheles is just beneath
And he's reaching up to grab me

This is one for the good days
And I have it all here
In red blue green
In red blue green

You are my center when I spin away
Out of control on videotape
On videotape(x6)

This is my way of saying goodbye
Because I can't do it face to face
So I'm talking to you before it's too late

No matter what happens now
I shouldn't be afraid
Because I know today has been the most perfect day I've ever seen.





What is on your must have music list?

MS conference Part deux

Yesterday I attended an MS society conference and I wanted to share what I learned there with you all. This is a continuation from yesterday. The second part of the conference was the most fun and was one of the main reasons I went at all. We got to learn some Tai Chi.

I have always been fascinated by martial arts and especially Tai Chi. I have only taken one itty bitty class in it so I really know nothing. I love to try to challenge my body so thus far I have taken: Tae Kwon Do, the Tai Chi class, ballroom dancing, shag dancing, and belly dancing! I can say with pride that I suck at all of them! Heh! I have always been uncoordinated and clumsy with or without MS but it doesn't stop me from trying and having a good time.

Anyways...this little session was special because she tried to gear it a little for folks with MS. Whoever could not stand, could remain in their chairs and do the movements they could do. Actually we all started off sitting and began with loosening up the joints. What particularly felt so good to me was the shoulder one. All we did was roll them forward and then back. I thought to myself, "I gotta do this more often."

I found a small video...not of what we did exactly....but some warm ups nonetheless. I will put it at the bottom of my post here.

We did a little of the forms and I as always...I was amazed by how graceful and fluid the instructor's movements were. And powerful too. It doesn't seem that such slow methodical movements are part of martial arts but as she explained...it is like all this great energy coiled up...ready to spring. You are doing so much when you do the movement slowly. It is like with weight training...I see all the folks at the gym moving so fast...trying to get the reps done but really...if you slow down a bit and feel the position and form of your muscles...you can do a whole lot more. Try to do a squat slowly...it is a whole lot more effective.

I also like the slow movements of Tai Chi because they are a symbol for how you may lead your life...with conscious focus and direction. Life doesn't have to be a blur...you can slow things down so you can feel the process.

It was just a flavor of Tai Chi really...but enough to whet the appetite to want more. I found the stretches and movements very pleasing. It all felt good!

So here is a little video I found. And if anyone knows more about Tai Chi...tell us about it because...I would love to know more.

how about a little nirvana...

i want an easy friend....

Building a mystery

i was playing some of my old CD's and re-discovered this song. i love it so.



here are the lyrics:

Sarah McLachlan - Building A Mystery Lyrics

You come out at night
That's when the energy comes
And the dark side's light
And the vampires roam
You strut your rasta wear
And your suicide poem
And a cross from a faith that died
Before Jesus came
You're building a mystery

You live in a church
Where you sleep with voodoo dolls
And you won't give up the search
For the ghosts in the halls
You wear sandals in the snow
And a smile that won't wash away
Can you look out the window
Without your shadow getting in the way?

You're so beautiful
With an edge and charm
but so careful
When I'm in your arms

Cause you're working
Building a mystery
Holding on and holding it in
Yeah you're working
Building a mystery
And choosing so carefully

You woke up screaming aloud
A prayer from your secret god
You feed off our fears
And hold back your tears, oh
Give us a tantrum
And a know it all grin
Just when we need one
When the evening's thin

You're a beautiful
A beautiful fucked up man
You're setting up your
Razor wire shrine

Cause you're working
Building a mystery
Holding on and holding it in
Yeah you're working
Building a mystery
And choosing so carefully

Ooh you're working
Building a mystery
Holding on and holding it in
Yeah you're working
Building a mystery
And choosing so carefully

Yeah you're working
Building a mystery
Holding on and holding it in
Yeah you're working
Building a mystery
And choosing so carefully

You're building a mystery

I have always loved...

this song. i hadn't known there was a new version of it out. it figures someone would re-make it as it is such a classic. here are the two versions.

I'm in a frankie kinda mood...