why hello there bloggers and blogettes!
open your pretty peepers as monday has arrived whether you are ready or not.
i am not. yet. ready.
i am tired. but then again i was way tired yesterday and i had a ton of sleep. MS? me? who knows. being tired isn't all that bad sometimes. you slow down. i sometimes get giddy. and other times the tiredness makes me sink in mood. not this time though. i feel good. just a little disjointed as though i am forgetting things.
i have plans on being a doer instead of a dreamer. i finally took step one towards a writing project. i have a sort of title. well...i had a title i was very excited about but my editor (are you out there reading this?) said...yeah that's great but let's chop off this part and change this...lol Who needs a title right? "Just write" he says. Some folk need a lot of structure and some need next to none. I am very used to writing with no structure but now...I find I need a little structure. I find I need a title to know where I am going.
*gulp*
all of a sudden i feel fear about doing things. "just do it" is the nike or was the nike motto. no...i need to feel ready. am i ready? no wait...i need the right time, the right place, the right frame of mind, the right pen, the right computer, the right...me. WAIT.
sorry...just neuortic me talking.
so what what you been wanting to do but are afraid to start?
what do you think you are afraid of?
thoughts to percolate upon this fine monday morning of wary unreadiness....
Come sit a spell and shoot the breeze. Sweeten the day with a little synchronicity...
11 comments:
"so what what you been wanting to do but are afraid to start?"
My taxes...
Happy Monday, Sweetthing!
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hello sweet pumpkin crumbcake! lol
Just jump in and do it, lifes regrets are not really about the things we have done as much as the things we have NOT done.
Heck, as an accountant, I have no choice but "just do what I needed to do". Sometime I have to force myself by starting something simple and then grow from there. I can always modify my format later.
Like Mark, I am not looking forward doing my taxes but I need to start that at the end of this month when I get all of my documents in order.
Have a great day. Hugs
Jim
Blame MS for all procrastination - it's not the fear of failing, it's the fear of falling along the way. Metaphorical falls include fatigue, pain, and self-doubt born of both.
My post today is rather similar, in a different way, MM.
This was told to me by someone when I said I was starting my book:
The first and only really important rule for being a writer is ass on chair and fingers moving on the keyboard.
I'm sooo glad you ARE going to write a book!
In the past I worked with a lot of different editors, for interviews, op-eds, and short stories, and none of my editor relationships were easy, and some opporrtunities I really wish I had let pass by.
Op-eds and essays, I'm good about accepting somtimes ruthless feeling feedback for the sake of clarity.
But SHORT STORIES! They were raw vignettes about the hardest things in my life, and to have an editor try to change my realities - I regret some very personal things are in print the way they are in my name. Readership doesn't matter to me as much as that what is in my name is my truth, when the writing is not to make a point, or inform, but to share my life.
I don't know anything about what kind of book you would be writing, but what I learn most from, what makes me think most, and maybe change something about the way I am ( - and therefore the way I act out my life) usually comes from very personal accounts of people's experiences.
My cat-sitter is an ex-legal journalist who wrote nonfiction novels, and he teaches a class at Berkeley Extension on writing non-fiction novels and he works exactly the opposite of your editor. He has his students imagine their book finished if it were to become exactly what they wanted - title, cover, print, length of chapters, names of chapters, all - knowing that everything is going to change from there. He has them make text-empty binders that are are organized as their imaginary finished book and then work by filling them in.
This comment is becoming a book, but I'm so happy you are going to do this!
I just finished my part of my magazine article that comes out in March. And this phone editor in New York was very - I don't know the words - swift, to-the-point, in -a rush- but (if what actually comes out in print is what we agreed upon) this was the most I demanding I have ever been with one, because it was lifted from something very taboo I said in my blog that they found, and it REALLY matters to me that it is heard (I DON'T want to be a face of AIDS with faded print) and that it is not going to taken as hurtful or exploitative, and it is right on the edge. But my point is, I learned from this present editor/contributor relationship that fighting editors hard is completely OK - (and can lead to constructive changes that work) - when it's about you.
Afraid of not doing what I need to do....afraid that after another decade down the road and I'm no further down the road than where I stand now. Afraid that, knowing that its the journey and not the destination, my journey will still find me stagnant.
Sorry - I was so excited about you writing that I didn't finish your question. I want to finish my bachelor's degree. I'm not going to say how many schools I have been to, and how many leaves of absence, and withdrawals, and repeating courses that didn't transfer - but I want that!!!
I applied to a new school a couple months ago, and applied for federal financial aid, and then stalled on my statement of purpose and scholarship investigation.
I'm scared of not being able to follow through because of physical and mental interruptions. And of articulating my purpose.
Wow, you have an editor?
It's not quite Monday morning anymore, but still nice to stop by. BTW thanks for offering a post for the Carnival!!
"so what what you been wanting to do but are afraid to start?"
Sounds really stupid...but cleaning my bedroom. It's in an unbelievably disturbed state, complete with things which have been taunting me for over a year.
"what do you think you are afraid of?"
Probably that once I start the task, no matter what, it'll never be complete. I know - I know - ridiculous. But I simply hate failure. ;)
procrastinator extraordinaire, i have yet to complete my biz plan... mostly cuz my choice of business was deemed 'too competitive'... to which i replied: what type of biz is NOT competitive? grrr
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