Cats, Wisdom, and Sickness

Hi y'all!

First of all a new kitten photo of Miss Mew Mew for you....and especially for dear Susan who asks about my kitties all the time. Mew Mew is getting big as you can see but has not lost any of her kitten antics.

Thanks so much for all the advice regarding going from expensive kitten food to adult cat food. She isn't full grown yet so there is time.

What's new with me you ask?

I have been sick! UGH! Just a virus which gives you all the fun symptoms of congestion, sore throat, aches and pains, etc and so forth. Thing is...it is unusual for me to be sick. My super immune system usually keeps such things at bay but the whole family had this so I am the last to get it. And subsequently feeling hot makes my MS symptoms get a crack at me too.

So it was no wonder with all that going on that my mood plummeted. Sometimes when I get depressed I have to first ask myself, "Am I just getting sick?" We are not separate from our bodies. When we feel physically unwell then it makes sense that we will feel poorly emotionally too.

Seems like everyone I know is sick now. Have you had a virus or cold lately? I will give you much sympathy.

Okay so that covers cats and sickness...

Wisdom? You got any?

Been reading a book called "Blessings in Disguise" which was written by a bunch of different authors. I am finding much inspiration from these readings.

One author quoted a verse from Tao Te Ching which reads:

Fill your bowl to the brim
and it will spill.
Keep sharpening your knife
and it will blunt.
Chase after money and security
and your heart will never unclench.
Care about people's approval
and you will be their prisoner.

Do your work, then step back.
The only path to serenity.

I am finding a lot of truth in this message. Everyday I beat myself up for not having done more and I need to just step back from it all. I need to do and let go. And this is true whether I am teaching my son or writing articles or helping a friend.

Sometimes I get caught up in the superficial stuff. I wish to see the results of any work that I do. But the whole matter of living is to be found within the process. We do, we work, we give, we love, and then we let go.

These are just words on a page I realize but I want to live my life this way. And I need to for my sanity.

I am so much more weak in so many ways, much more vulnerable than I have ever been, but I find myself stronger because of it. Does this make sense?

Just rambling...hey...this is what cold meds can do to ya. LOL

This is late getting out to you guys but...

* If you have Multiple Sclerosis or if you are just interested in this topic, Doctor Sethi who is a neurologist will be taking questions to answer through me. So if you have a question you wish to be answered by Doctor Sethi, the neurologist please do so here in the form of a comment or else shoot me an email. I will be posting all questions and answers on Health Central on Wednesday.

* On Health Central's Deprssion site I wrote about how depression can cause you to hide. For me I was hiding under baggy sweats and my own fat. I do understand all about gaining weight and letting yourself go. I talk about how I underwent a long transformation process to eventually discover me underneath all the layers of depression. Read my personal story here.

This year is going to be rockin and rolling as far as my writing goes. I have lots more surprises in store. By next week I will have more concrete things to tell you.

Wanted to apologize to you all (seems like I do that a lot) for not getting around to visit you as I would like. I truly love to read you all and catch up on what is going on in your lives. And sometimes I feel very undeserving of all the support I get from you guys. The thing which helps me most to thrive is to feel that I am a part of a larger whole. I love the interaction and connection between people that we can get through this on-line medium. It is sometimes hard for me because truth is...I am shy and awkward. I find that I am much more relaxed and at home on-line and...this has been an emotional life saver for me.

My cold meds are also making me into a big sap.

Anyways...what I am trying to say is thanks for being out there. It is nice to know I am not just writing to myself. I am glad I am not alone. I hope to give back as much as I have been given.