it is time to write a little something...let it all hang out...like your guchkies blowing in the wind on the clothes line. not that anyone has a clothes line anymore. i am sure they are outlawed by home owner's associations everywhere.
of course i am thinking about the meaning and purpose to things. specifically my purpose. there have been many moments in my life where i have felt a strong pull in a direction. there have been times when i have felt a spiritual anvil being thrown on my head to remind me of what is important. but lately...nothing. nada.
maybe i am just not listening very well?
i am in the lull between moments.
maybe i already know my answers.
one thing i know for sure is that this life we are given is a gift. yeah maybe it isn't perfect. oh so far from perfect. but it still is a gift. i don't want to waste anymore time. i don't want to piddle it all away on things i don't wish to say or do or feel. there is only so much time. you never know how much.
when does it all make sense? when do you wake up and say..."YES!" and "I am sure." and..."I know what I am here for and what to do."
i wish i could walk into the perfect autumn day (my favorite season) and just dissapear into the cascade of leaves. oh to fall into a memory and never look forward. just sink and sink into colors and smells and crisp childhood breezes. all time stands still...bare feet on dewy grass...a single green transluscent blade in your small pudgy hand...a mind free of pain and worry.
and then back again. to this. to the mind which doesn't stop. to the wondering...the endless wondering.
Come sit a spell and shoot the breeze. Sweeten the day with a little synchronicity...
4 comments:
Mere,
It must be the season of DEEP THOUGHTS! Every blog I turn to folks are looking for the meaning of their existence. Myself I do very little worrying, I try to live for today, not repeat the mistakes of yesterday, and look forward to the future.
Do I have a purpose, I must, but I don't spend much time thinking about it.
As for spirituality I belong to the church of God's Green earth. All statues are still part of the mountains, the carpets in the aisles are grass and flowers, the alters and there are many all covered in bark. Money is useless at my church so we do not pass the plate. Come as you are, become how you want to be is the only commandment. Also we remodel 4 times a year!
We hang clothes on the line. As for wondering: I wonder what's for lunch?
awww...you are a good guy slip. and you have a wonderful perspective. yes what is for lunch? :>)
I LOvE wondering, pondering. examinig my life and all the world around me. I agree with an inexamined life is not worth living. I plan to continue till my last breath. You are extraordinary and when you see that, feel that, love that---the wondering only gets better. I love Slip's church too.
it'd be a bigger bitch without that mind, sweets....
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