well...the world keeps spinning doesn't it?
i had taken my little depression break there, all tucked up and isolated from the world, and from friends as well.
i come back to begin visiting you guys and it seems the earth has fallen off of it's axis. lots of things going on with you all and some things have been very painful.
and i want to say...i am so sorry.
in my own little selfish bundle of protection i have been neglectful and perhaps the best thing i can do as an anecdote to my own despair is to reach out.
sometimes we do all need that time to self comfort and get it together. but then you take off the myopic lenses and see that...hey...other people are hurting too and could use a little support and care.
i am doing better now...for this moment...for this day at least and...i want to be a better friend.
so come on here and let me give you all a big hug! my arms are open wide!
peace and love to you all and thank you for continuing to be my friend and stop on by here. my door is always open.
Come sit a spell and shoot the breeze. Sweeten the day with a little synchronicity...
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A big hug to you too :-)
Sometimes we don't feel up to much and retreat into our own world.
It's nothing to be ashamed of and certainly nothing to say sorry for :-)
Good friends will stick with you through thick or thin!
Take care,
Philip :-)
Hi MM - I got your message earlier - thanks so much. I could do with some healing thoughts please - I have an hour-long MRI scan on Monday morning. I'll be taking some sedation but it has come around quickly and that has rather unnerved me. In the UK, under our National Health System, any test appointment coming within 3 weeks of consulting a specialist is fast. I am finding my left side less and less reliable now. Even this resigned, laconic girl is getting a bit scared by it all.
I am so sorry your have been very down-hearted of late. Look, we have each other's email addresses - some extra-Blogger trans-Atlantic mutual support could be the way to go?
Hey, don't beat yourself up for taking some time off for yourself. Sometimes it can't be helped.
(((HUGS)))
Thank you for your candid writings - very powerful and full of intense meaning.
I have been where you are now, so think I might understand. As one who is standing in the light *at the moment*, I can tell you: don't worry - we are still here for you. If you need to go into the cave for a while, we'll wait outside 'till you are ready to come back out.
But if you stay too long in the cave, we will eat all the peach ice cream!
Hugs are okay, but what special plans do you have for my birthday on Monday?
H-m-m-m?
Well...
hmmm...and double hmmm...how about some juicy peaches dirk? :>)
You dont have to apologise!!
And big hugs to you to!
x
Hi Merelyme: We all have our down times and we are entitled!
For me, going to "that place" is always hard but once I "get there" I find comfort there until, like you, I poke my head out for a minute to see what's going on outside "my world" and only then does the pure selfishness of my act makes me feel like "what the hell do I have to be blue about?" And then -- out of the cocoon into the world like new birth.
So now you know, it is not altogether selfish - it is healing too.
Take care, Anne
a big hug to u too. and no need of sorry dear. sometimes in life somethings are more important and meant to be taken care of than blogs and friends. i can understand
(((((HUGS)))))
It's okay to be depressed. There is a purpose. It is not wasted time, and it is certainly not selfish. I couldn't be happier that you took care of yourself first. Kudos!
I'll give you a hug, too, even though we scarcely know each other. Thank you for visiting my blog, and please come back again. I visited you once before and I'm glad I dropped back. Happy you are feeling better.
Me thinks that you should be getting a booster hug instead!
Good to see you back!
Yes, what DID you get dirk for his birthday?
one of the mantras that i use in mediation is "just this breath, just this moment." if i can be present for just this breath and just this moment, i feel pretty good. and in the end, that's really all we have, just now, and just here.
Don't apologize! I'm sure you've got plenty on your mind! Besides, I haven't been around to see you either lately so...
Hugs (and prayers) to you too!
merelyme,
we all need to wallow sometimes. i certainly hope myself up at times.
i'm just glad you always come back.
xo
It's no problem - {{hug}}.
Funny I often notice that when I hear bloggers suffering from depression a friend of mine who struggles with this problem also has the same issue at the same time.
Now makes me really wonder if it isn't some force in the world (universe?) we just don't know and people like you and him are tuned into it.
Whatever - keep fighting the fight.
“I wanted a perfect ending. Now I’ve learned, the hard way, that some poems don’t rhyme, and some stories don’t have a clear beginning, middle and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what’s going to happen next.”
Gilda Radner
Thanks for the hug!!! Right back at ya!
I believe that not just as people with chronic illness, but with all creative people, there is a real need to go within. I think we need it to process all of the ideas, emotions, fears ect. No need to be apologising. It isn't selfish in a negative sense.
So many wonderful wishes and words of wisdom posted here...it would be pretty hard for you to deny your importance or existence in this world of connection based on this! Which is, by the way, what keeps us all connected...reaching out AND reaching in.
Linda D. in Seattle
Nothing to apologize for--we now know you are going to be ok if you need to be away for awhile-this is how you replenish your energies
here's a haiku to cheer you up--
There is strife in life.
Apology not needed-
just never give up.
I hope this helps. Hope you're feeling better about things.
Glad to see you back. Big hugs.
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