i need to write.
where have i been? i dunno. just dealing with my life i guess. as much as we have our external adventures we also have internal ones as well.
my internal journey has been to...avoid...lately. to avoid...to distract myself...to become engrossed in nothingness. i don't want to have to think about my life...my future...the big picture.
i want to lie in the grass and pick dandelions. you know...like when you were a little kid. i want to smell grass and watch ants and feel the heat of the pavement under bare feet. i want a peanut butter and banana sandwich. i want someone to take me by the hand and take me home.
as old as one gets...there are some moments you feel like a child again with those same needs and wants.
perhaps we grow more complex as adults but the needs are usually the same.
we all need to feel safe, loved, cherished. we want to feel joy...to laugh...to feel the sunshine on our open mouthed faces. we want to feel free...to dance in puddles and blow our wishes to the wind. and if we fall or get scared or are just a little unsure...we want someone to hold us and tell us things will be okay.
little girl needs and adult worries
the two shall meet in me.
Come sit a spell and shoot the breeze. Sweeten the day with a little synchronicity...
7 comments:
What a wonderful expression of the child in you! I can relate. I often feel like a child as well - in need of comfort and care and time to play. I'm 62 and still feel that...And just think, we'll probably still have those feelings when we're 101. We will probably still be a child inside, and I think that's a beautiful thing.
Hi Merelyme,
Sorry, I haven't been visiting you lately. I have been making many new friends over the internet and been busy with some freelance works. Just want to say "hello" and I haven't forgotten you :)
It is so true that we all need to feel safe, loved, cherished and we want to feel joy. Life is full of ups and downs. It's wonderful to have loved ones, family and friends who are always there. It gives cheer to a dark day and doubles the joy of a joyful day.
Take care and have a blessed weekends!
exactly how i feel, but substitute 'boy' and 'man' in there...
sometimes i spend too much time in my head, other times, not enough
thankfully, my 3 kids are now more than 21 years old, so 'need' me less on a daily basis... but they know i'll always be there for them
your life is a lot more complicated, and i don't know if i'd have your strength... you do amazing things, my friend :D
Just stopping by to say hi and that I hope your gallbladder issues are being taken care of. I had the surgery on Mother's Day 2003 and I've never been "that" kind of sick again. Thank God!
Take care of yourself so you can take care of your loved ones.
Anne
There are times that I too simply want to be taken care of...to feel like a child without any responsibilities.
I spent about half an hour today sitting on a hillside surrounded by yellow and lavender flowers with the sun beating down warm on my shoulders, waiting for a train to pass so I could take a photograph of it with all that blue sky and yellow flowers and green trees.
It was restorative. *s*
The child in me had a wonderful time walking barefoot in the grass this week.
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