June 7th, 2007
Soon I will be off to meet my neurologist. Sounds so fancy...*I* have a neurologist. I really don't want a neurologist but this is life with all it's many fascinating facets. If you had told me ten years ago this would happen I would have run for the hills. But here I am ready to face this undetermined future. As it is for all people. I feel a sense of relief in some ways...as though this great secret is being revealed to me early. Everyone else...well...they have to wait for their bit of news or bad luck. Me....I will know ahead of time. There has to be advantages to that.
I am scared. I won't lie. I don't want to see my lesions or white matter or anything at all really. I want to pretend this is not happening and walk away oblivious. But...that ain't happening today.
So...with my inflamed brain...I will trudge off to the doctor. Ooooh the melodrama. Do you see a lifetime movie in my future?
Here is a question for you...who would you have play you...in your lifetime movie of the week? I am thinking maybe...Jodi Foster to play me. Yeah.
Come sit a spell and shoot the breeze. Sweeten the day with a little synchronicity...
4 comments:
HI there Merelyme (if you say that fast enough a few times it sounds like marry me),
How are you? Welcome to the world of MS bloggers.
I promise the fear and the unusualness of all this, the having the medical support team with fancy type doctors and nurses will get normal and you'd think that life would be strange without them. The first year after diagnosis is pretty strange. It's a life changer for sure. But you know all about that by now.
The great thing about ms bloggers is that you have online support should you need it. Plus you get to add to the great amount of resource material that exists between us. Each of us shares an affliction but not one of us exhibts the same symptoms to the same degrees. Which is why your story is worth recording and sharing. So thanks for being so brave. Bravery is not the absence of fear, but doing what you can despite the fear. Good on ya!
Cheers.
-Doug
Hi there. I was DX'd May 10th, and it was a relief, compared to the brain tumor I was at first fearful of having. I guess I felt empowered to know what it actually was, so that I could begin to take some steps to do something about it.
I just started Copaxone a week ago, so far so good. I am hoping I miss my next scheduled episode. UGH! I am still interested in natural/alternatives though and am forever reading and reading, gotta love google.
Jenn
"So...with my inflamed brain...I will trudge off to the doctor. "
Soooo, now you can tell everyone you have a big brain! :D
Just remember...that fancy schmancy neurologist puts their pants on the same way you do...one leg at a time!
Glad to see you back writing.
Linda D. in Seattle
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