I have been writing and writing...and...well...writing.
I am a "writer".
Parentheses because...I am just me. I happen to write. But now it is a thing. A paying thing. I am doing well. Really well for the likes of me. It is like telling a genie...hey...I wish to be...a writer. And then suddenly you are. But there are still holes. And you wonder...I am getting exactly what I wished for...so what is the problem?
I need to write here. I need to be free. I need to...express the vastness of my ineptitude. I need to be on my knees. What good is writing if it does not humble you?
I have done these things...that I never imagined I would. I did a conference. I was on TV as the main course. People believe there is something in me that is special but my god...why don't I believe this? Maybe it is better not to believe.
What would be possible if I only believed in myself? I don't know. I am still not there.
Come sit a spell and shoot the breeze. Sweeten the day with a little synchronicity...
14 comments:
you definitely are a writer ..
no doubt about it ..
:)
You are both a writer and a person who writes. Give it time - you will eventually believe in yourself, partly because other people believe in you. Enjoy the ride. Good to see you on the blog again. Is there a link to your TV appearance? I couldn't find it.
writers write,...that's right.
In many cases I've seen those that are good in whatever they are doing are often the most critical of themselves... probably why they excel as they push themselves on.
So - take it for what it is. You are a "writer" because you are getting acknowledged for it - that is it. This time last year I was a guy who talked a lot about music and said this and that. Now I'm an artist - ok no money but I'm playing gigs, I've been played on an internet radio show a few times, I have a gig that'll be on the internet live being organised, I have my music that I wrote and performed available on the internet for people to listen to.
Do I cringe when I hear the mistake I know is in this piece or that. Do I cringe at the clumsiness of some of the lyrics, or wonder whether the chords should be this or that... of course I do. Do I have moments of massive doubt and wonder if I should expose myself like this in case someone decides to attack me in some way... yes.
But at last I have a real focus in my life again - I'm doing something with the years of playing and talking and whatever happens I can now say that I've done these things and be proud of what they are.
Oh, I have not been writing at all of late. Have had too much going on. Need to stop and take a deep breath and get back to it. Hey, you're the real thing! Hope you and family are doing well. Let me know! D
Hi,
Please come by my blog and pick up your Beautiful Blogger Award.
Love,
Hi Merelyme,
Please come by my blog and pick up your Beautiful Blogger Award.
Love,
Herrad
I write too. I write to heal..I write to connect to me...to say those things that play in my head...to show a part of me that's hidden...but that's alive....just found you....I think this blog is cool. Sarah
hey. :)
if u wont mind me saying,
dont believe in anything. but believe in you and what you desire. thats all.
Hello,
Please could you go and visit The Wheel of Fortuna and leave a supportive message for Steve.
His partner BobRobert is in the local hospice and is not expected to live much longer.
It is not so long since his diagnosis which makes it all even more sad.
Thanks for your support.
Love,
Herrad
nice to stumble into you here on the interwebs! who could ever doubt that, among other things, you are a Writer?
Its been awhile. How are you doing?
Congratulations!
Seems ya never know.
Unexpectedly, the gods are kind.
How quickly we forget the wind...
How quickly we go back to sleep.
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