Well...
Finally got my MRI scheduled. They called Wednesday afternoon and told me to be ready Thursday morning for the MRI. Nothing like some advanced notice huh?
I don't know what to do. I guess I should shop around for a new neurologist. I like my doctor okay. It is just the damn center where she is located. It is crazy. They do not have their act together and I have been displeased with their services for over a year now. I am not one to whine and complain...takes a lot to get me upset but geez oh man! Enough is enough! Four friggin phone calls to get the MRI which...should have been scheduled.
So...I have the CD with my brain scan on it. I have not looked at it. What would I look for anyway? Bigger holes? More of them? Sometimes you have to trust in the doctors. Even though I don't wanna. A neurologist I am not.
There are two likely scenarios to come to pass. Okay pessimistically there is one.
A. I have more lessions
B. Things are the same.
C. By some miracle I am cured! My lesions are no longer there.
Hey anything is possible right? Right now it is a Schrodinger's Cat scenario...all possibilities exist at the same time. Reality only comes to play when we observe it. Sorta kinda.
Right now I don't know what the reality is...and that's okay. I am in no hurry.
I had this morbid thought the other day while walking around a mall. I looked at each person and thought..."Everyone I see is on a timeline. Everyone has both a beginning and an ending point." God isn't picking on me. Every human living thing will eventually...(cover your ears if you don't want to hear this)...die. Seems like a fairy tale.
In some ways it makes the life we have more precious. We shouldn't waste it. We don't know what will happen tomorrow. This...right now...may be all we get. Personally...I want to go out with a bang! Fireworks baby! Seize the day...all of that.
If you haven't started living...well...now is the time. Bring some happy into your life. Tell someone you love them. Go do the things you really want to do. Life goes by so very fast. I had no idea. When you are young it seems that it will last forever. It doesn't. Make it count. Make it...mean something.
All right...I will stop. Enough epiphanies. LOL
And onto...the topic of writing:
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My writing this week includes:
How to de-stress by decluttering your home environment.
Part Two of this series is how to de-stress by carving out a physical space of your own.
The Next Two posts have to do with what to say or do if you have a friend or loved one who has Multiple Sclerosis or really...any chronic illness.
You may find Part One here.
And Part Two here.
Come sit a spell and shoot the breeze. Sweeten the day with a little synchronicity...
16 comments:
I also have the CD with my brain scan on it. Chronic illness is a battle. Thanks for sharing.
Hey, slide that DVD into your computer, forward it over to me, and I can take a peek over here.
What? You mean you can't do that? Bummer.
The suspense.....
Hey. You better not go back to that office, not even one more time. Call and make an appointment on Monday and have them get your records sent over.
Unless you want to tell the nice neurologist why you are leaving, but I think you tried to do that already.
If you have further problems, that is not the place you want to call for help.
Yeah, we live finitely, some time we find the right reasons to treasure each minute. You're only beginning.
I really hope there's a genuine cure for MS someday. Don't give up hope. :)
Sieze the day....
right on!!
Good advice. Thank you.
surely there are other neurologists in other offices you could see?
it might be worth a phone call . perhaps a visit to just scope out another place.
hey d, you're a sweetie, and i love you...
with each post you show superb courage and intelligence in how you learn to cope, and then share your findings...
kudos are not enough, but that's all i can give you!
blessings to you and yours....
I hope the MRI results are good.
And I think you should switch doctors. There is no reason to put up with that kind of crap! Find someone you like with a competent office staff.
Hi, Diane: Just checking in on you. Hope you are having a good weekend with the family. Let me know that you are okay! Donnetta
The Halloween Apple...
(in honor of apple cider)
I believe you're right, of course.
One of the leading causes of death in the world is
life.
Oh well.
Now, as for your CD?
It's probably a hole the same size, because if it was bigger, it would wiggle around in the CD player. If it's too small, It won't spin at all.
CDs are funny like that.
Hope your scans come out better, though.
So, I keep trying to see if this scares anybody...
BOO ?
Per your advice, I just told somebody I love them. Good advice.
It's interesting that both of our latest posts have such syncronicity (to use your word). 'Making life count for something' is a theme I think about a lot but write about very little.
If a picture paints a thousand words, suppose you'll be speechless when you finally DO see the MRI pix? I'm all "philly soft ical" myself today too...or steroid crazy. Hard to tell really.
Linda D. in Seattle
Nothing makes me more anxious, that's all I know. (Well, that's not exactly true). But clutter has to go.
Seize the day, yes. Definitely. But I think also let's give ourselves permission to sulk once in a while. I know sometimes I need a bout of self pity to get up the steam to go out and be courageous again. Is that terrible?
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